To you my only love in life,i will love you till the last day in my life,either you or no one,no one ever will take your place in my heart because i see no one ever deserve to be loved like you,you are my adorable asfour and my precious love that i will live only for but don't worry,i am not going to say what you expect,i know you fed up with me,i know and i feel that this is the end,i even called my cousin and i told her to come after tomorrow and take all my lingeries and other things i bought,she is engaged and will get married very soon with the person she loves who didn't ask to try her first before deciding if he tends to buy or not
We have failed to understand eachother ya asfouri,i am from the third world as you say but hopefully i am in my gods eye some thing better than your first worlds people,i have commited very bad sins but i decided to do no thing but asking for forgiveness all the time till god forgive me them,you don't believe in after life ya asfouri? you will be judged for every thing god said in holy quran and you didn't obey ,i don't understand how do you still commit sins without any fear of hell or even gods anger,he gave us alot of good things but the way we say thank you is by commiting sins all the time,this is really shame on us,shame on me that i blindly followed you and was always weaker than saying no but i regret now,i am afraid about you to wake up when it is too late,even if we already left eachother but i am really worried about you,i was praying that you see sense and will never give up,please wake up ya asfouri,one day we all will be put in small dark hole under the earth and every one will leave us and soon forget every thing about us,the only thing that will remain is your good works along with your sins,regretting then is of no use,prayers of people who loved us will be the only little hope there but for how long,week,month or even year or years then they will go too and we will be totally alone,so sad i believe you laugh now at what i say
i had aclose friend who died 3 years ago,she was the same age like me,i was reading quran and tend that the reward or hasanat to goes to her and she was visiting me in my dreams always when i do that,i stopped during period aganist my wish really but life took me and i forgot,she then visited me in adream and she was crying,she said why you stopped,i am tortured now,you can laugh at me as you want and say this is just dreams of non sense but it doesn't mean any thing,i didn't want you to change to practice domination on you but only for yourself,how do you tend to meet god by book full of every thing forbidden,what are you going to tell him when he asks you how you were calling his rules (middle centuries and third world) beliefs
i have no hope at all that this poor e-mail will ever change any thing but make you laugh at me more and more and feel sorrow for my closed mind and the cage i am living in as you were always saying about me
take care
me
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