My asfour birthday

I am just looking at date of my last message and find that i wrote it only on 5th October! we didn't have time till we broke again ya asfouri :( how come is that

Your birthday is today also and i can do no thing no thing at all,i cant ever be close to you ,i cant speak with you on phone .i cant hang out with you,i cant enjoy the wonderful person in the world as i want,i love you and you love me but what we can do is very limited! very limited to meetings in your office but i cant dream of more,who can stand this and how long,please dont blame me

but i wanted to tell you happy birthday but i cant,i wanted to kiss you and hold you tight on that day,i want to celebrate that with you (only me and you) but i cant,you even never show me that you want things like that! how sad is that

why you dont treat me like before ya asfouri,i heard that when a man sees that his girl cant live without him ,his care for her declines because he made sure that she will be always there for him whatever he does! i am sorry to say that i am finding that happening to me,in the past you were always concerned about how to satisfy me,we kont betsale7ni 3la tool ,but now the opposite happens but i dont regret that i showed you my indeed love and i am afraid to tell you and confirm this fact that i cant live without and will be waiting you even forever

put your mind in rest ya asfouri please and ignore me as long as you want or even leave me and forget about me,i am yours and will be always yours only till i die

Moly

My adorable asfour

I am over over over the moon.Dead body back to life again by mericle that's me ! my soul is you ya asfouri,when you are close to me i am active,happy and love this life and when you are not i am sick dead and hate to live in this life any more! every moment passes is torture to me! my need for you in my life is just equal to my need to breath

soon you will be mine forever ya asfouri i can't believe,i will wake up every morning to find you next to me! there will be NO barriers ever between us, i will be in love with the greatest man in the world ,this is too much for me, do i really deserve that ????? i am afraid that i may not

نعم يموت الحب

قد تذبل الوردة يوما وتموت بل انها يوما حتما سوف تفعل

ويوما سوف يتوقف قلبي عن الخفقان

سوف اتقبل ان ويمكننى ان اتقبل فقدان اي اشي ولكن لم يمكننى ابدا ان اتقبل ان يموت حبي او بالاحرى ان علي ان اقتل حبي بيدي حتى لا يسبق ويقتلنى كما يفعل الان

لقد فعل حبيبي كل ما بوسعه ليقضي علي حبي له ولكني لن اتوقف عن حبه يوما ولن يأخذ مكانه احدا في قلبي ما حييت وان كان هذا لا يعنيه ولا يعبأ به ان اظل احبه ام اتوقف عن حبه او حتى احب غيره

كم من اشياء حولي ستظل ابدا تذكرنى,كما سأري عصفورا سأتذكر حبيبي كلما سمعت اسمه سوف اتذكر كلما سمعت كلمة حب سوف اتذكر كلما نبض قلبي سوف اتذكر انه كان ينبض من اجلك كلما سمع صوتك او كلما رأيتك امامي

خسارتى انك لم تكن تستحق حبي ولم تحترم مشاعري يوما وتركتنى اقطر الما وقهرا وانطلقت .........

هكذا ببساطة تركتنى والقيت ذكراي وراء ظهرك

كم انا رخيصة في نظرك

حبيبي رغم حبي لك لن اسامحك ابدا.........

Bleeding heart

Asfouri 7abibi

I still cant imagine that you didnt love me,how could you claim that you love me all that much then leave me very easily,how can you live without me if you really did love me,i cant live and i dont consider myself living right now,i am so sick and full of depression enough for nation,no day passes without thinking of you,i truly loved you ya asfouri i will never forget you and i will never love any one else till i die if you could forget me that easy i will never forget you and evenif i have choice to do i prefer to keep you in my heart till the last day of my life

but let me tell you ya asfouri that although i love you more than any thing else i may not forgive me giving me big hope that we will be always together then taking it suddenly from me you hurted me alot and you did leave me continous bleeding wound that never stop bleeding and killing me slowly

Its the good bye

To you my only love in life,i will love you till the last day in my life,either you or no one,no one ever will take your place in my heart because i see no one ever deserve to be loved like you,you are my adorable asfour and my precious love that i will live only for but don't worry,i am not going to say what you expect,i know you fed up with me,i know and i feel that this is the end,i even called my cousin and i told her to come after tomorrow and take all my lingeries and other things i bought,she is engaged and will get married very soon with the person she loves who didn't ask to try her first before deciding if he tends to buy or not

We have failed to understand eachother ya asfouri,i am from the third world as you say but hopefully i am in my gods eye some thing better than your first worlds people,i have commited very bad sins but i decided to do no thing but asking for forgiveness all the time till god forgive me them,you don't believe in after life ya asfouri? you will be judged for every thing god said in holy quran and you didn't obey ,i don't understand how do you still commit sins without any fear of hell or even gods anger,he gave us alot of good things but the way we say thank you is by commiting sins all the time,this is really shame on us,shame on me that i blindly followed you and was always weaker than saying no but i regret now,i am afraid about you to wake up when it is too late,even if we already left eachother but i am really worried about you,i was praying that you see sense and will never give up,please wake up ya asfouri,one day we all will be put in small dark hole under the earth and every one will leave us and soon forget every thing about us,the only thing that will remain is your good works along with your sins,regretting then is of no use,prayers of people who loved us will be the only little hope there but for how long,week,month or even year or years then they will go too and we will be totally alone,so sad i believe you laugh now at what i say

i had aclose friend who died 3 years ago,she was the same age like me,i was reading quran and tend that the reward or hasanat to goes to her and she was visiting me in my dreams always when i do that,i stopped during period aganist my wish really but life took me and i forgot,she then visited me in adream and she was crying,she said why you stopped,i am tortured now,you can laugh at me as you want and say this is just dreams of non sense but it doesn't mean any thing,i didn't want you to change to practice domination on you but only for yourself,how do you tend to meet god by book full of every thing forbidden,what are you going to tell him when he asks you how you were calling his rules (middle centuries and third world) beliefs

i have no hope at all that this poor e-mail will ever change any thing but make you laugh at me more and more and feel sorrow for my closed mind and the cage i am living in as you were always saying about me

take care

me

Work

I wish you the best in your conference ya asfouri,i love you so much,stop making me so jealous to you please ya asfouri and stop telling me in hidden way i am no thing in your life but for .....you said stay away from my work! i want to be your work partner for no thing really but just to be close to you as much as possible and to make our minds closer to eachother! don't ever think for

moment i am thinking about any thing else but to be with you ya asfouri

I am working in good job and pays very well but i don't want it! there is no second of my life passes without me thinking of you and missing you and how great pity i feel when i don't see at any day,think again ya asfouri of your attiude with me,i love you

yours Moly

again to asfouri

Dear any one

please listen to me,try to understand me,he is my only love,he behave so hard with me some tiems and i feel really hurted that i must go and i decide to do because any girl who respect herself would do,he mean to say very hard things to me,his life style is really horrible that i can't stand only one minute but i love him,i feel it will end that i will take my first serious lesson by life,love doesn't win always at end but there are too many things that are much stronger than feelings,my sweet heart changed also towards me and have never become such sweet and romantic with me like before even when i tried to remind him he said do you think i can remember what happened last year,i live only for today who knows what will happen tomorrow! is that areply that can make girl feel safe ever with aman? does he mean what he says? is there message he is trying to get me that romance and love is just step that we passed? 7abibi please be like before,please let us be stronger than any thing,i will never stop loving you

Me