i really love him and he is my every every thing : ( it is you ya asfouri my only true love,what's wrong if i wanted you for myself because i felt you want me too,you told me too and made me feel i can dream such wonderful dream
you travelled and last 2 weeks kept sending me very strange mails like if some one else but not you who do that,mails devoid of sense like if you are talking with man like you and you meant to hurt me,i send you mail and say i miss you and when will you come back and i receive reply any mails will be sent to my gmail will be deleted automatically ! how many mails you sent me before through it and how many cards ! what happened this year? or don't i taste the same as before to you,i spent BLACK nights thinking what did i do,you can't be just busy and do that with me,you meant to hurt me several times for some reason and i really didn't find one except that you decided to leave me but again why and why don't you tell me that in more kinder way better than hurting,so you want to double my suffering?but you aren't that kind,i always loved your kindness and was fond of you,i don't understand and i feel too bad
finally i said i will send you mail before ramadan may be things will go better but your reply was extremely disappointing and again meant to hurt me by formal cold words devoid of any sense like confirming me that's how it should be and when i went mad because you were clearly pushing me away,you said i want you and i didn't force you !
(To be continued later)
